knowing that no one is there is killing, people say they are but they aren’t. 
I can’t do this anymore and no one gets it. everyone thinks that im just being immature and its all fake but no one understands how it feels. no one knows what has made me like this, I can’t change how I feel, this isn’t because of fighting with friends or ex’s or whatever, this has been going on for years and years but problems with health and stress have caused memories that i’ve shut away since I was little have come back and are re happening in my dreams and are making it hard for me to wake up in the mornings. you know my name not my story, so don’t tell me what to do when you don’t know what I’m going through or what its like or why I’m like this.

You say you love rain, but you open your umbrella. You say you love the sun, but you find a shadow spot. You say you love the wind, but you close your window. This is why I am afraid, you say you love me too.